I spent Labor Day afternoon relaxing and also wrote my posts for Tuesday, Wednesday and yesterday. I am glad we can schedule when we want posts to publish. It ended up being a good thing that I wrote and scheduled posts because if I hadn’t. I may not have had posts those days.
Tuesday I was hit with the worst Fibromyalgia flare up that I have had. My pain on a scale of 1 to 10 was a 12. I managed to teach my morning class but came home after that and spent nine hours laying in bed. Wednesday was a little better and yesterday a little better. I am actually writing this Thursday, so don’t know what it will be like today Friday.
As I was laying in bed Tuesday, I prayed to ask God to just take me home to heaven and that I was done with my work here. I managed to get out of bed for a while Tuesday evening and when I checked my Facebook, I had a message from someone who I used to share Jesus with.
” Hi Matt, how are you doing? I hope everything is okay with you. I’m so sorry that I haven’t been able to keep in touch with you for a long time. I think God is telling me that I should send you this message. I’ve been in depression since last winter and I’ve just felt better in June. Every day was hard for me. I woke up in the morning with the question in mind that why I was still alive, went to bed at night with thought that I could never wake up again. God saved me. I was struggling, and I kept praying. I have never prayed with such a devotion in my life. God wants me to live so he can show me his love. I remembered you always told me that God loved me, but to be honest with you, I didn’t quite understand. I know God loves me and I can still see or feel it in my life. I just don’t understand why. I didn’t see the value of myself that God sees. Long story short, I want to let you know how I’m doing and I hope you wouldn’t mind me sending you this long message “
God was letting me know there is more for me to do in this life. If God had taken me home to heaven, that would have been great. I mean nothing here in this life compares with heaven. However, God let me know he has a purpose for me being here.
When God answers prayers, he answers knowing what is best for us and in ways that will get our attention. God knows that having a friend from another country send me a message would get my attention right away. He knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows how we are wired and how to get our attention.
Thank you for reading. God Bless.