A few months ago, I felt the Lord impressing on me to share about chronic illness in my Instagram. Because of that I have been able to connect with other chronic illness spoonies from various countries. One of them is a woman in Sweden who goes by funniebunnie on Instagram. She does live interviews on her Instagram with people. She asked me to do one.
We did it today. It is a but long, but I wanted to share it with you. If you click on the link, you can view the interview.
It has been quite a while since I last wrote a short story. The one I wrote today is The Wanderer’s Encounter on a Path. It is about a person, who I never describe or identify. who is walking down a lonely path thinking of suicide but has an encounter that changes things.
I purposefully did not describe or identify the character so that anyone who reads the story can picture the character however they wish. If even one person is helped, it is all worth it.
This week is suicide prevention awareness week. This is an issue that has impacted my life through the deaths of three people who have completed suicide. The first was someone I knew when I was in high school. The second was a 19 year old girl who completed suicide a few weeks before she was supposed to start college because her boyfriend broke up with her. Depression was an issue for her for a while. The third was my friend who completed suicide this past Saturday at the age of 28.
There is a popular phrase that I wholly agree with.
It’s okay to not be okay.
There is truth in that saying, but I do not want to leave it there. Yes it is okay to not be okay. But I do not want people to stay stuck in not being okay. There are steps we can take to experience healing in our lives. I think the second saying that needs to tag with it’s okay to not be okay is:
It’s okay to need and ask for help.
We can ask for help from someone we trust. If we feel there is no one we trust in our personal lives, there are people we can turn to. If in high school, a counselor at school. A school counselor would want you to come ask for help.
If in college, colleges have resources to help.
If not in school, or as the saying goes-adulting, there are counseling services, churches, places to go for help. I know my pastor would definitely want someone who is struggling to come ask for help.
Did you know Jesus wants you to come to him for help? He said so himself in Matthew 11:
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Notice he said- ALL. All means all. Jesus wants all to come to him. The reason he gives is that he is gentle of heart. He want to give us rest for our souls.
Remember it is okay to need and ask for help. Asking for help is much better than suffering in silence.
By asking for help, our stories can continue and in time take on new and better meaning. I am sharing a wonderful spoken word video- Your Story Isn’t Over Yet. I am also sharing a wonderful song- The Mention of Your Name.
Today is Suicide Prevention Awareness Day. It first became very real to me how important it is to watch for signs and to show compassion and love to people in September 2011 when a 19 year old girl I knew completed suicide. Being at her funeral was one of the saddest days in my life.
Only five days ago it became even more real to me when a young woman who was 28 years old completed suicide. I will go to her funeral tomorrow. She had a difficult life having been abused by her father growing up. I tried to help her for a few years but lost track of her when she got married to a man who ended up also abusing her.
Darkness whispers to those who are struggling that there is no hope seeking to lure them into a fatal decision. Despair, loss of hope, and feeling there is no way out harass the person.
In contrast Jesus said in John 10:
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
Darkness seeks to destroy. Jesus gives life, hope, peace inside and love. Jesus heals wounded souls.
It is so important that we show the love and compassion of Jesus to those around us. We do not know what inner turmoil people are going through, but Jesus does.
If you are reading this and have thought of suicide, please know that God loves you and cares deeply about you. There is hope. Also please call for help.
In the USA you can call-800-273-8255
In Canada you can call-833 456-4566
In other countries please Google for the number.
I would like to share two videos with you. One is by a young woman who was suicidal but got help. The other is a song that will help you to feel God’s love.
Lord, I’m so tired in this fight Tired of waking up with no end in sight I feel I’ve got so little left I know that I’ve come to the end of myself
Ever feel you have come to the end of yourself? Ever feel life seems like a disappointment? Ever feel discouraged?
Such feelings are understandable especially in the times we are living in now. Jesus does not want to try it alone. His desire is to be in our lives and help us step by step.
No matter how far down we feel we have gone, Jesus is there inviting us to come to him. I love the way Corrie Ten Boom, who endured a Nazi Concentration Camp, put it-“No pit is so deep that God’s love is not deeper still.”
God showed up in two ways yesterday to show me he is with me and he will watch out for me.
First, I received a blessing of a donation from a wonderful friend. When I received it, I breathed a sigh of relief and thanked God for my friend. I prayed for my friend and my friend’s family.
Second was a meeting arranged by God at my bank. I had received a fraud alert call from my bank and after spending 30 minutes on the phone had an appointment with a personal banker. As someone who at times has anxiety issues due to chronic illness, let me tell you my anxiety kicked in.
But when I got to the bank. my personal banker was a young woman whose family is from Vietnam. She was born here, but her parents are from Vietnam. I shared with her about my young friends from Vietnam. As we talked, memories of my young friends from Vietnam I mentored came to mind and my anxiety disappeared. She was VERY helpful and kind with this old guy. If the personal banker had been from anywhere else, I am not sure my anxiety would have gone done so quickly.
God turned a negative into a positive experience for me.
The experience of a young person from Vietnam helping me and the blessing a friend sent me, reminded me of Isaiah 46:4:
“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”
That verse came to mind even though I am not old and my hair is only white because I dye it white to look older. 🙂 lol
Hi My loves, This video is about the time when my anxiety and panic attacks got so bad, I had to go to a mental hospital. The summer of 2016, I had debilitating panic attacks. I was having multiple panic attacks a day, several trips to the hospital thinking I was having a heart […]
I saw a video on Youtube yesterday that caused me to think about voices that we pay attention to or give power over us.
There are many voices in our lives competing for our attention. It is as if we have a radio tuner and need to select which station or voice.
The voices we give power to are the ones that can rule our lives. But ate the voices ones that bring us down or ones that lift us up?
Jesus talked about his voice when he said in John 10:
“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them,and they follow my voice.”
What is his voice like? When Elijah was in need of God, God’s voice came in a gentle whisper. We read in 1 Kings 19:
“After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper.”
God whispers to us. God’s voice is never condemning. We read in Romans 8:
“Therefore, there is now nocondemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus”
If a voice is condemning you, it is not from God. God is gentle with his children.
Mary Magdelene was distraught when she went to the empty tomb of Jesus. She had been through the emotional ringer of watching Jesus die on the cross. She was grieving. Her eyes were filled with tears, so she did not recognize Jesus until Jesus said her name. In John 20 we read:
Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me whereyou have put him, and I will get him.”
Jesus said to her, “Mary.”
She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”).
Jesus did not condemn, ridicule, or shame Mary while she was distraught. He spoke her name.
So which voice will we listen to and give power to?
Last Monday I shared Alisa Turner’s song My Prayer For You. As I listened to the song many times, I felt I was listening to a song by someone who has known hardship.
I live with Chronic Illnesses-Celiacs, Fibromyalgia, Hypothyroid, Each of them have wrecked havoc in my life at different times. Celiacs and Fibromyalgia each have symptoms of depression and anxiety.
That is why I felt a connection to her song My Prayer For You. I felt she understands what it is like to go through hardship.
I watched a video about her story which is the 2nd video in this post. It will help you realize why she understands living with hardship and yet still live for Jesus. Each Monday this month I will share one of her videos.
Today I am sharing Safe. During this time of the COVID-19 Crisis with all of the uncertainty it would be understandable if someone does not feel safe.
There are other reasons we may not feel safe- abuse, chronic illness, anxiety, PTSD, family problems, depression, and more.
I love these lyrics from the song safe:
Safe, I’m finally safe I can hide here, I can hide here Safe, You hold me safe I’m okay here, I’m okay here Completely safe
We are safe in the presence of Jesus. He is our loving Savior. When John was taken into the presence of Jesus in the book of Revelation and saw Jesus in all of his glory, John fell to his face out of fear. Jesus touched his shoulder and said:
“Do not be afraid. It is me.”
Come to Jesus. Do not be afraid. He loves you. He is waiting for you.
May is Mental Health awareness month. One issue with Mental Health Anxiety is living with Anxiety Disorders.
Living with an anxiety disorder is more than simply feeling nervous before a test or job interview. Anxiety problems can include:
Due to living with more than one chronic illness, anxiety has been an issue for me. It is much better now, but as a Christian it was not easy to share about it especially since I had been in ministry for a while before I experienced problems.
One thing that has helped me a lot is what God says about anxiety. God does not just say don’t be anxious. In the bible God invites us to come to him and give him our anxieties. In 1st Peter 5 we read:
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”
God invites us to cast our anxiety on him. I love the reason he tells us to do so. BECAUSE HE CARES FOR YOU.
God invites us to come to him and give him our anxiety. He loves us. He knows our weakness and loves us. I think sometimes we think of God as not being sympathetic with us or not understanding us.
Hebrews 4 says:
“Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”
Jesus lived in this world and experienced pain, death, loss of his earthly step-father Joseph, being abandoned by his friends for a few examples. That is why he can sympathize with us and understand us. That is why we can cast our anxiety on God and come to God in prayer to find mercy and grace in our time of need.
If anxiety disorders are an issue for you, please seek help and also remember God invites you to tell him all as he welcomes you with open arms.
If you are feeling anxious at this time because of the COVID-19 crisis, God invites you to tell him all as he welcomes you with open arms.