Freedom from Victimhood

Surviving abuse involves at times an ongoing process of forgiving. By forgiving I mean releasing them to God to be free of victimhood not forgetting. But when the memories come back, what do we do with them. It took time but I have gotten to the point of praying as soon as they come back.

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So this is a raw post but one I felt the Lord leading me to share. As a child, my home was a nightmare at times with a mentally ill mother who played mind games and an alcoholic father. That should be enough said without going into details.

Fast forward to when I was in my early 30s. I began to feel tired and had trouble making it through the day. It continued to get worse as my health declined with my first bout with chronic illness. That first bout was so severe that I was close to multiple organ failure until one day I said something to my doctor that rang a bell for him. He tested me and found I had a dead thyroid.

I spent a over a year recovering from that. When I saw my mother, which was rare, I told her I had a dead thyroid. She asked me what my TSH test number was. I told her. She gleefully and proudly told me hers and walked away. That was when I found out what I had was genetic.

When I told my father after that, he said, “your mother never told you?”

Had I known about the genetic predisposition, I would have asked to be tested every year and could have avoided the nightmare of three years of declining health, over a year recovering, and the process after that of getting my life back together.

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The mind games of my mother and the negligence of my father continued into my adulthood. They have both passed away. Yesterday the memory of that time came back. So I prayed over it. I said to God that I hoped my mother had made her peace with him and thanked him that my father had.

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By doing so, I stepped away from being trapped in victimhood. Jesus wants to set us free. He said so himself. Jesus who is the truth said in John 8:

“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

The truth is that Jesus loves each of us and values us so much that he left heaven to be born as a human baby, so he could grow to be a man and die on the cross for us.

The truth is that God wants us in his family.

There are so many more wonderful truths in the bible to learn. It starts with coming to know Jesus. Then he begins the process of setting us free.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Walk by faith, not by sight — poeticchristian

I walk by faith and not by sight I have seen him turn the darkness into light For every trouble in my way There is a word I dare say Believe me this is not a cliche I walk by faith and not by sight He can still make every wrong thing right Trust me […]

Walk by faith, not by sight — poeticchristian

We Need to Protect Children- My Hero Band Came

About a month ago, I shared a post that was about the reason I canceled my Netflix due to the movie Cuties exploiting 11 year old girls to make a movie. The post was- We Need to Protect The Children.

More recently I shared a post about a young woman who was a victim of child sex trafficking who has now had a wonderful work she is doing. Her work is Hero Bands. For each band sold, she donates $2 to Operation Underground Railroad an organization that rescues children who have been trafficked. A person can also donate a band to be given to a child for only $10. I donated a band and ordered one for myself.

My band came in the mail yesterday.

I chose the words Be Kind for my band to remind myself to show kindness which is so needed these days.

I have decided to donate at least one band for a child each month. I figure my Netflix subscription cost me a little more than the $10 it costs to donate a band for a child. I would much rather my money goes to a child each month than to a company that paid for a movie to be produced that exploits 11 year old girls.

It would be great if some of my followers would do the same. Take the money that would have gone to Netflix and use it to help fight child sex trafficking. You can look up organizations like Love Justice, Hero Bands, or others.

Jesus had strong words to anyone who would harm a child in Matthew 18:

“If anyone causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea”

This obviously shows how much Jesus cares about children. Let’s care about children who are victims of child sex trafficking.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.


Music Mondays- Come Alive by Lauren Daigle

This was one of the first songs I shared when started doing Music Mondays. That was a few years ago when I had 100 followers. I felt led to share it again because the message is powerful and wonderful.

We can feel dried out and lifeless at times for various reasons. Perhaps we have been through a rough patch in life. Maybe it is a severe trial or loss. Maybe it is our own mistakes.

Whatever the reason, God is always there to give us new life. Jesus is always saying come to him to find rest.

So today I want to share this wonderful song with you. Come Alive by Lauren Daigle. I hope it refreshes you as you start your week.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

The Experience of Living with Chronic Illness Expressed in Song- Window by Alisa Turner

Alisa Turner is a Christian Artist whose music speaks to me. She lived through years of battling Lyme Disease being bedridden from it for some time. Upon getting healthier, as in able to go on with life but still having issues, she started to pursue her dream of music ministry.

Her new song The Window expresses so beautifully and poignantly the experience some chronic illness sufferers got through of only being able to watch life but not be a part of life.

It was born out of her experience that her new song The Window was written and recorded. It was also out of that same experience that she recorded one of my all time favs My Prayer for You. I am sharing both in this post.

So for all of my fellow Spoonies, Chronic Illness Sufferers, here are two wonderful songs by Alisa Turner.

A Beautiful Blogger Chat

On Saturday mornings I am blessed to be part of a blogger chat in Zoom. It is a sweet time of fellowship with friends from various places in the U.S., Upstate NY, Florida, Georgia, Illinois, and Nebraska.

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Yesterday was a wonderful time as we had a baby shower for Temi of She made an Amazon wish list and each person sent her a gift via Amazon. We watched as she opened the packages. We also prayed for her and her baby who will come in about four weeks.

After the virtual baby shower, we shared about how things are going in our various locations regarding COVID. Then an idea came to me. I asked if people wanted to share a bible verse that has meant something to them recently. Vanessa of almost jumped out of her chair. She has had the thought to write a post about memorizing scripture. If you have not read it, she had a recent post that so beautifully explained the reason for the name for her blog. You can click on Name of her blog to read it.

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We finished with prayer for each other and for our country. It is a time of sweet fellowship I look forward to each week. If you want to visit to check it out, leave a comment.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Where Did My Help Come From?

I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber Psalm 121

As I think back on the first 7 months of this pandemic including the shutdown in my city, the loss of a big chunk of my income for 3 months, Psalm 121 definitely speaks to me.

I remember when I received the stimulus check in early April. I thought, “great this will be smooth sailing”. Then in June the loss of income hit. So being a teacher, in the summer during a pandemic with no real chance of finding temporary work, what did I do? I prayed, and prayed, and prayed.

There was no second stimulus check because of politics. Right now it is one person holding it all up. But no problem. Why? I don’t look to government. I look to God.

God came through for me through his people. I received cash in the mail. I received a $100 Visa Gift card in the mail. 2 sisters in Christ sent me money. A friend called and told me he wanted to help and gave me a check for $500. People brought me food. I received a gift card to a local supermarket. Each time I was surprised in a joyful way and could not believe it.

Now I have a 3 day weekend. Today is a 1 day fall break for my class. I just felt it was a good time to write a post, the night before and scheduled, to give thanks to Jesus and his people.

I also wanted to share this post in hopes it will encourage someone to seek Jesus in a hard time. No I did not become a millionaire, but received something greater. The experience strengthened my faith and encouraged me to keep going in my ministry and teaching.

Thank you for reading. God Bless. Please enjoy this song- Lift My Eyes- by Alisa Turner.

We Need to Protect Children- Hero Bands

A wonderful work is Hero Bands started by a survivor of child sex trafficking. I shared Elizabeth’s video last week. She survived being trafficked as a child and is now married with children.

She started making bands as a way to help her cope and it grew into a small business. She now has Hero Bands. A person can buy their own band that has a word on it like Strength or Hope.

Even better a person can buy a band for only $10 and the band is given to a child who has been freed from trafficking to wear. The band has the word Safe on it.

For every band sold, $2 is given to Underground Railroad an organization that rescues children from trafficking.

I bought a donated band that a child who has been rescued will be able to wear. I plan to buy a band for myself.

Here is the link for Hero Bands-

And here is the video of Elizabeth’s story in case you missed it.

Story Time- Using An Old Rotary Phone In A Snowstorm

In October 1997, my city had a once in a hundred years snowstorm. It was 12 inches of heavy wet snow. I woke up in the morning to what sounded like explosions. I peaked outside and saw a branch snap off a tree and fall to the ground. It shut down the city for several days.

It was a Sunday morning. I woke up realizing I had no electricity. Parts of my city had no electricity for a week. I got mine back later that day.

I called one of the pastors of my church to inquire about church that morning. He asked me how I was calling since my area had no electricity.

I let him know I had an old rotary dial phone in a box and got it out to make the call. He asked me to help him call people to say no church that day. I spent an hour calling people from that old rotary phone.

Sometimes things we consider old and obsolete can still serve a purpose.

The bible encourages us to seek the ancient ways in Jeremiah 6:
This is what the Lord says: “Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls. But you said, ‘We will not walk in it.’

In these times that we have plethora of books, videos, speakers to go to, I do not want to forget the book that has stood the test of time. Governments have tried to stop it and failed. The bible, the Word of God, is the most important resource for any Christian.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Q and A with me- My Answers

Last Friday I shared that for the first time ever my blog went over 30,000 views for the year. It was actually just an excuse to do something I have fun doing which is a Q and A.

Here are my answers. I wrote them while sitting in a coffee shop for the first time in 7 months due to COVID. I may have had too much coffee. 🙂

By the way-Notice the Pink Shirt? Breast Cancer Awareness Month. I want all of my followers who are women to see a doctor and get checked. Early detection is key.

Barb of asked- Would you consider forgoing a haircut for a while so that you could wear a mullet? Seriously, I want to see it!

Mullet- 2 word answer- No Way, Longer hair I have thought about at times though 🙂

AND- Now for a serious question. Do you have a favorite OT book? NT book?

Old Testament I love Isaiah. It was written about 700 years before Jesus came and has amazing details about the promised Messiah all of which Jesus fulfilled. New Testament I love to teach the John.

jlp of asked- Do you have a favorite cartoon character?

This will show I am old school. I loved the Roadrunner as a kid.

Herry of asked-  What was your favorite childhood cartoon character and movie?.
And what was the weirdest thing you have done?.

Childhood was a LONG time ago. I loved the roadrunner cartoon. As a child I loved the movie Mary Poppins.

Weirdest thing? hmm. so many weird things I have done. What to choose? Maybe the time I thought putting cocoa powder on cottage cheese would taste the same as chocolate ice cream. I was wrong 🙂

My sweet daughter Temi of asked- Based on your blogging experience, is there a time of the day you consider as the best time to publish a post?

I think for each blogger it may differ depending on their audience. I tend to schedule my posts for the morning early enough so my followers in other countries/time zones can read them in the evenings their time and my followers in the USA and Canada can read them in the mornings or afternoons.

One note- if I reblog a post, I usually schedule it for later in the day. That is mostly because I do not want to flood the read section of other bloggers. I tend to not like it when I look at my read section and someone has 7 to 15 post flooding it.

Crissy of asked- How do you feel about putting pineapple on pizza?

Pizza. Oh how I miss pizza. I found out I have Celiacs in 2017 so no more pizza 😦 When I used to eat pizza, pineapple was delicious on Hawaiian Pizza 🙂

Brenda of asked- how tall are you?

I am 5′ 10″ so almost a foot taller than you 🙂

Saron of asked- What one piece of value advice would you give to your younger self?

Jesus is the answer would be the most important. I would also tell my younger self to study languages because you have an ability for them

Dawn of asked- Do you have a favorite author

The Holy Spirit because he inspired the bible 🙂

For other books my all time favs are J. R. Tolkien and C. S. Lewis 🙂

Bethany of asked- How do you trust God in the calling He has for you?

There are ups and downs for any calling from God. The most important thing is to know God because the better we know God, the more we can trust him in the down times.

Ruelha of asked- If you could completely erase one event/timeline from your life with absolutely no memory of it, what would it be?

I have thought about what life would be like if I could go back in time and redo some mistakes in my life. But then I think about what Romans 8:28 says:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” 

Even my mistakes and wrong turns in life God used to lead me to the life and ministry I have today. If I were to erase something, I would not want it to alter the course of my life.

Christine of asked- How long have you had Celiac disease and what advice would you give to a young one (like my daughter) who is just starting her journey?

I was diagnosed in 2017 but am sure I had it for quite a while. My advice to a young one is that while yes it is not fun to change how we eat, it is worth it because you will feel better and there are fun foods you can still eat. Example- your mom can make gluten free macaroni and cheese by using macaroni made from rice flour.


What is something you love that most people would find odd?

Other people probably think I am odd 🙂 One thing I love to do is go to supermarket just to walk around and greet people in their languages.

Keziah of asked- What is your personal opinion on pain and why do you think humans experience it? And what has most influenced your thinking on this?
(By the way! “The Problem of Pain” by C.S. Lewis is an AMAZING read on this subject!!)

Personally I hate pain but have lived with chronic pain for over 25 years so it is my normal. We experience pain because of the fall when Adam and Eve sinned. We are living in a fallen world where we have pain, disease, death, crime etc. The bible has influenced me the most. The encouraging thing for me is that pain is only in this life, In eternity with Jesus, there will be no pain. 🙂

Thank you for reading. God Bless.